B.Day

Last wednesday was my birthday. I was sooo happpy on the previous days.on that day i went to work fulled of enthusiasm and happiness until i went back home and i faced my father and said b.d hurry up i just came and found your mom lied on the floor. i ran to her room and found her laid down on the floor without any movement. i was shocked and didnt know if she went unconscious or......
i checked her pulse and was week,after a while she talked to me crying. i've tried to find the cause but didnt know.no sign of hypoglycemia, her blood pressure and temperature were normal and didnt feel nauseated just suddenly felt down unconscious and there was no one beside her at that moment.
the cake was my sister's job and my father brought desert and at night all were celebrating including my mom but i kept sad and a faked smile on my face. i didnt like to show my sadness to her and tried to make her happy.
next day i was supposed to finish many staffs but i didnt and kept at home worried she might collapse.
she is fine now but im worry about her.
yesterday i went to Aljamiaa street and to Almansour then to Adamiyah,baghdad is great at night except for the lack of electricty that causes dark places and the presence of the concrete barriers around some destricts and at the checkpoints.last week many exlosions occurred.the photos of the candidates are spreading all over baghdad especially on walls of the high concrete barriers.
As for abu ghreib ,nthing changed the same unbelievable traffic jam on the entrance. by the way a driver showed me a way to enter Abu Ghreib without being searched!!!!!! its just about 2 kilometres away to enter through a village called "al thahab al abyath" where there is a checkpoint that allow the cars to enter and go ahead.
Today I was so angry at work,we still donthave electricity,half the instruments were not sterilized. a patient came asking for treatment.his tooth was indicated for extraction.of course without light and the dental chair position cant be changed.i was in need of the chair turbine to dissect the tooth but there wasnt neither the electricity nor the working dental chair.
One of the dentists began to blame me about receiving such case for treatment since we dont have facilities.we faced difficulties but it was extracted. he was right but i became so angry and told him that instead of blaming me ha had to blame the person(s) who was(were) responsible for this miserable situation.and I told the others that I'm ready to do anything just to supply this health institute with electricity and other necessary materials.imagine that the electrical connections are so bad that once they were about to fire.
i'm feeling guilty toward the poor patients.
this night i'm upset and dont like to talk about it. I need a break for a while and i have to do some revisions and decisions.