The last few days were difficult to me. I couldn’t think well,my brain stopped and freezed many times,woozy and sometimes couldn’t afford a caper from my friends!!. At night I cant sleep till 3 am and wake up everday at 6:30am, even the nap during the day is so difficult.
I really missed my family and the sweet house environment. My parents and sister went back to iraq on Tuesday, the same day I went to baghdad. I reached at 6pm after 7hours trip from mosul. More checkpoints were along the road.especially from samarra to baghdad where you can see the next checkpoint by your eyes when you are in a checkpoint!!!
At that night I was so happy ,we spent all the time filled of laugh and humour with all my brothers, sisters and neighbours.my nephews kept hugging me.i began to tell the jokes and couldn’t stop.we kept till 2 am.
my father talked about the humiliation they faced at the borders and how they were treated. It was so frustrating to hear that.
im feeling of guilt toward my family, they need me near them especially my parents are old seniors. I’m supposed to take care of them and my brother and sister. Many times they delay to achieve some staff untill I visit them. If I could take them with me just to take care of them and pay back a tenth of what they have done to me.my sisters and brother kept satting beside me all the time, ibought them gifts but I know that will not substitute the warmth and the support that im ought to give,they were talking to me if they faced any obstacle or a problem but no more. I will try to spend every moment to make them glad.
Love your family and friends and Keep smiling.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Mockery in iraq
Hi,i admitted to the higher studies at the university of baghdad, department of laser technologies and plasma institute.the main obstacle was the experience, the condition states 2 years of actual experience and i have got 1 1/2 yrs,anyhow,i admitted a request to the minister for exception and still waiting for the reply.my parents and sister went to saudi arbia for alumra passing through jordan since the airport is exclusively for the governement and the passengers who obliged or dont care for insults.its not fair to call it an airport and equalize it with frankfurt or athena,its better to call it a prison or an american base.i couldnt phone my parents before departure because of the bad coverage of the mobile network only my father phoned me for few seconds outside baghdad.i was so sad and kept that night awaked till 3am,tried to hold up my tears but couldnt and cried for feW moments because of the bad situation we are living and the big frustration i felt at that moment but im so bull headed .. and i will keep up.last friday as i was walking in the hospital some soldiers of the national guards were heading to exit. as they approached me, one of them hold his m16 pointing it on my head just few meters away from me,he was ready to shoot,shouted "stop and dont move". i was so coooool and kept on walking. i didnt know why i didnt stop or panic? they passed near me and i was looking at them with a cold look empty of feelings.the last one then said hello, and they laughed,they were kidding!!!!! what a stupid way.its a hospital,what if one the patients with a heart problem was walking instead of me????!!2 weeks ago an idiot soldier hold his gun and was about to shoot me because he thought me a terrorist as he saw me carrying my laptop bag and entering the shop but the shop owner stopped him and told him that im a dentist.
its a mess.wherever you go.al maliki visited the vatikan and asked the iraqi people to go back to iraq,wherever he went, he asked iraqis to go back to their homes.why dont he make the situation of iraq better and provide the facilities of living at first.who would listen to him now if your national guards are afraid.frankly speaking the people are laughing at him and at the parliament, not only the people but also the americans who made him a toy with his government.
my parents and sister kept at the borders for two days,without a phone call.i got insane.we didnt know where they were,what happened,many thoughts filled my head.at last they phoned my sister in baghdad and told her they passed the borders.
last week explosives were found in the minstry of higher education in baghadad,i cant imagine how they reached the middle of the minstry.its like a military base,concrete barriers all around with one way of entrance and exit passing through 2 personal searches.
in mosul, the sitauation still as it is, no progress just in one thing, they used to close roads by the concrete barriers or bricks only, now they are closing them by 1/2m hhieght of dust and trush!!!.
can you imagine a main hospital without electricity?? you may see that in iraq without imagination.the jamhory hospital in mosul is witnessing that. two days ago,the hospital was completely out of electric power excpet for "some rooms". i saw that. the emergency without power.the hospital was very dark and doctors were lighting the corridors with their mobiles!!!
the patients began to get out of their rooms because of the hot wheather. i wondered what happenned to patients with severe burns or in theatres"operation rooms" or in the I.C.U "Intensive care unit" and this night the police closed the road of the hospital leading to the emergency. tha patients had to walk for a 100 metre.if the case of the pateint allowed him to walk this distance he wouldnt bother him self and crossed all the checkpoints at night.but who listen or think of all those people.may god be with the innocents and guard this country.
baghdad dentist ...
its a mess.wherever you go.al maliki visited the vatikan and asked the iraqi people to go back to iraq,wherever he went, he asked iraqis to go back to their homes.why dont he make the situation of iraq better and provide the facilities of living at first.who would listen to him now if your national guards are afraid.frankly speaking the people are laughing at him and at the parliament, not only the people but also the americans who made him a toy with his government.
my parents and sister kept at the borders for two days,without a phone call.i got insane.we didnt know where they were,what happened,many thoughts filled my head.at last they phoned my sister in baghdad and told her they passed the borders.
last week explosives were found in the minstry of higher education in baghadad,i cant imagine how they reached the middle of the minstry.its like a military base,concrete barriers all around with one way of entrance and exit passing through 2 personal searches.
in mosul, the sitauation still as it is, no progress just in one thing, they used to close roads by the concrete barriers or bricks only, now they are closing them by 1/2m hhieght of dust and trush!!!.
can you imagine a main hospital without electricity?? you may see that in iraq without imagination.the jamhory hospital in mosul is witnessing that. two days ago,the hospital was completely out of electric power excpet for "some rooms". i saw that. the emergency without power.the hospital was very dark and doctors were lighting the corridors with their mobiles!!!
the patients began to get out of their rooms because of the hot wheather. i wondered what happenned to patients with severe burns or in theatres"operation rooms" or in the I.C.U "Intensive care unit" and this night the police closed the road of the hospital leading to the emergency. tha patients had to walk for a 100 metre.if the case of the pateint allowed him to walk this distance he wouldnt bother him self and crossed all the checkpoints at night.but who listen or think of all those people.may god be with the innocents and guard this country.
baghdad dentist ...
Hi,i admitted to the higher studies at the university of baghdad, department of laser technologies and plasma institute.the main obstacle was the experience, the condition states 2 years of actual experience and i have got 1 1/2 yrs,anyhow,i admitted a request to the minister for exception and still waiting for the reply.my parents and sister went to saudi arbia for alumra passing through jordan since the airport is exclusively for the governement and the passengers who obliged or dont care for insults.its not fair to call it an airport and equalize it with frankfurt or athena,its better to call it a prison or an american base.i couldnt phone my parents before departure because of the bad coverage of the mobile network only my father phoned me for few seconds outside baghdad.i was so sad and kept that night awaked till 3am,tried to hold up my tears but couldnt and cried for feW moments because of the bad situation we are living and the big frustration i felt at that moment but im so ****** and i will keep up.last friday as i was walking in the hospital some soldiers of the national guards were heading to exit. as they approached me, one of them hold his m16 pointing it on my head just few meters away from me,he was ready to shoot,shouted "stop and dont move". i was so coooool and kept on walking. i didnt know why i didnt stop or panic? they passed near me and i was looking at them with a cold look empty of feelings.the last one then said hello, and they laughed,they were kidding!!!!! what a stupid way.its a hospital,what if one the patients with a heart problem was walking instead of me????!!2 weeks ago an idiot soldier hold his gun and was about to shoot me because he thought me a terrorist as he saw me carrying my laptop bag and entering the shop but the shop owner stopped him and told him that im a dentist.
its a mess.wherever you go.al maliki visited the vatikan and asked the iraqi people to go back to iraq,wherever he went, he asked iraqis to go back to their homes.why dont he make the situation of iraq better and provide the facilities of living at first.who would listen to him now if your national guards are afraid.frankly speaking the people are laughing at him and at the parliament, not only the people but also the americans who made him a toy with his government.
my parents and sister kept at the borders for two days,without a phone call.i got insane.we didnt know where they were,what happened,many thoughts filled my head.at last they phoned my sister in baghdad and told her they passed the borders.
last week explosives were found in the minstry of higher education in baghadad,i cant imagine how they reached the middle of the minstry.its like a military base,concrete barriers all around with one way of entrance and exit passing through 2 personal searches.
in mosul, the sitauation still as it is, no progress just in one thing, they used to close roads by the concrete barriers or bricks only, now they are closing them by 1/2m hhieght of dust and trush!!!.
can you imagine a main hospital without electricity?? you may see that in iraq without imagination.the jamhory hospital in mosul is witnessing that. two days ago,the hospital was completely out of electric power excpet for "some rooms". i saw that. the emergency without power.the hospital was very dark and doctors were lighting the corridors with their mobiles!!!
the patients began to get out of their rooms because of the hot wheather. i wondered what happenned to patients with severe burns or in theatres"operation rooms" or in the I.C.U "Intensive care unit" and this night the police closed the road of the hospital leading to the emergency. tha patients had to walk for a 100 metre.if the case of the pateint allowed him to walk this distance he wouldnt bother him self and crossed all the checkpoints at night.but who listen or think of all those people.may god be with the innocents and guard this country.
its a mess.wherever you go.al maliki visited the vatikan and asked the iraqi people to go back to iraq,wherever he went, he asked iraqis to go back to their homes.why dont he make the situation of iraq better and provide the facilities of living at first.who would listen to him now if your national guards are afraid.frankly speaking the people are laughing at him and at the parliament, not only the people but also the americans who made him a toy with his government.
my parents and sister kept at the borders for two days,without a phone call.i got insane.we didnt know where they were,what happened,many thoughts filled my head.at last they phoned my sister in baghdad and told her they passed the borders.
last week explosives were found in the minstry of higher education in baghadad,i cant imagine how they reached the middle of the minstry.its like a military base,concrete barriers all around with one way of entrance and exit passing through 2 personal searches.
in mosul, the sitauation still as it is, no progress just in one thing, they used to close roads by the concrete barriers or bricks only, now they are closing them by 1/2m hhieght of dust and trush!!!.
can you imagine a main hospital without electricity?? you may see that in iraq without imagination.the jamhory hospital in mosul is witnessing that. two days ago,the hospital was completely out of electric power excpet for "some rooms". i saw that. the emergency without power.the hospital was very dark and doctors were lighting the corridors with their mobiles!!!
the patients began to get out of their rooms because of the hot wheather. i wondered what happenned to patients with severe burns or in theatres"operation rooms" or in the I.C.U "Intensive care unit" and this night the police closed the road of the hospital leading to the emergency. tha patients had to walk for a 100 metre.if the case of the pateint allowed him to walk this distance he wouldnt bother him self and crossed all the checkpoints at night.but who listen or think of all those people.may god be with the innocents and guard this country.
Friday, June 20, 2008
BACK AGAIN
Its been along time since my last post. many events occured and alot of things have been changed during this period. i intended to go back to baghdad to complete the years of residency,but my request was refused by the ministry of heallth and a new procedure is followed now. all my friends and colleagues went back to their governorates except me. now the new rotators call me the chronic and themselves as the acutes. in the last two months i went in a picnic with my colleagues in the dental centre to the tourists village at that day i met sunshine whom i began to forget her face then i went baghdad for three days only, three days after we went to the north of iraq in a picnic with the gorgeous friends. it was one of my best journeys. aweek later i lived alone since my brother went to baghdad with his family for about a week then the military operation of um-alrabeaen began, iwas stacked at home for three days, no one could get out of his outdoor, at the night before the curfew declared i bought food,vegetables and mobile credit, thanks god.i began to cook food, hamburger,finger chips,fish,rice and sauce. i learned that from my mother, she was kidding with me saying "if it happen and your wife left you alone at home "if you will marry" you will have the ability to cook and be self dependent" and i was laughing.
the operation as i hope will face success because it was sudden with a huge number of forces prepaired targetting specific people inspite of the random arrestments occured at the first weeks. what annoyed me was the curfew that took many days and people began to starve,many residents are working for their living day.even me , i lived alone with a plenty of food but at the last day the refrigerator was empty,the gas was over and and and .... , idont know how the families lived that days!!!!!.
now mosul is much more better than before, im happy to see this and moreover the iraqi forces are taking control over the city.on the other side many roads are closed by concrete barriers and some by trash!!!.i used to hire a taxi , walk for about 100m to hire another one to go to work or back home,all this because of a military base constructed in a vital destrict and closed the main street preventing even the civilians from walking down that road. to overcome all these obstacles i decided and as my friends adviced me to live at the hospital residency. frankly speaking i do like to keep with my friends but the hygiene at that same hospital is bad.they are trying to reconstruct it but its toooo old,it has to be rebuild allover again.after the curfew was over and the checkpoints were opened again, my new friends" the cute acutes" went to their homes, everyone to his own governorate and again except me.i kept alone but there was my dearest friends mama,sunshine,dr s,dr m &h and dr a who kept asking about me, phoned me and sending sms.i felt the family surronding me,im very thankfull especially to mama and her nice family.
after that i went to baghdad for 11 days. the situation there is getting better to the best considering the same days last year.and i hope to see baghdad and iraq the perfect not without electicity im wondeing how the students are studying and examining in the hot wheather without electicity!!!! may god help them,but i believe they will challenge that and succeed,those are the iraqis.our house was searched several times for weapons after launching two rockets and attacking a checkpoint by militias.the national guards and police consructed a military base and a police station in our quarter and concrete barriers of 4 metres height is about to seperate the destrict and isolate it.its not the new democracy nooooo, they are just trying to prevent the dusty winds and help people!!!!!!!!!
my vacation was over and now im in mosul, i missed my friends and my friends who was in baghdad. in my way back there was a problem with the electricity of the car and we stopped in a checkpoint in mosul outside the city centre as the men with me were officers in the army and one of them was a big head in alaqrab combat team, i didnt know that and they didnt declared it only before the officer in charge of the checkpoint. we kept there for two hours waiting for the other car to come because american vhicles closed te road without a reason and many cars were waiting under the hot sun. i know i wrote toooo much but that was a brief of the past months.next posts i will publish some of the photos of the picnics. some of my own with miscellaneous ones.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
I'm in mosul
my vacation was over on wednesday and i left baghdad at that day. the trip wasn't tiring and lack the road divertion or offroad driving but many checkpoints were along the way. we faced 2 or 3 american troops but the delay was few minutes , we were lucky.
i came alone to mosul and it's too dangerous to live in my home because when the national guards or the american soldiers find a young man living alone he'll be considered as a terrorist and will be detained.
when i reached to mosul i phoned my father and he told me to keep with my friends at the hospital residency but i went home at first, had some rest and met some neighbours who were afraid and hesitated to talk about the situation and they didnt give me a clear answer . an hour passed, i went to hospital. honestly , i like to be with my friends instead of living lonely but at the same time i feel restless and can't sleep or eat well. i can face all this but not be humiliated or detained and im trying to make it as a visit to mosul. i can hold it no more, there is a big gap between baghdad and mosul, the way the people live differs, in addition and above all that my family is in baghdad living in a pain to see their son alone in mosul and in this bad situation of the city especially my mom who is complaining of hypertension. in my last visit to baghdad 1 month ago my brothers told me that she was in a very deteriorated health state, her blood presure was very high even they took her to the emergency at 5 a.m , the cardiologists caused it to her psychological state. now i feel guilty because every time she rings me a phone , she cries and in spite of her trials to hide that sometimes but her voice tone declares the deep pain. i wish i'm not borned yet to cause all this and i'm standing helpless. i wouldn't leave baghdad if i wasnt obliged, the whole capital was passing in a state of devastation and chaos and was very terrible but i say "may god forgive the causatives".
in my first day at work after vacation, i met my friends whom i missed and new rotator dentists were there, 3 of them were studying in baghdad at the same college of mine. the patients and dentists were in every yard of the dental centre. the manager said "find you a place to work in any department". at that day , i enjoyed my time we laughed and the smile was drawed on every face, that relieved me so much after a hard night that even headache realief didnt effect. i hoped that those moments would last forever and to see that smile on all the faces i meet. by night we were laughing and chatting and the sleeping song was 3 blasts and some shooting. this day , friday, the alarm tone was a horrible sound of explosion that woke us up and we were looking at each other to check if some one was injuerd or the glass of the window was crashed. thanks god it was only a shocking sound. some said that the explosion was in police station, but the hospital received many injured people as my friends said. may peace bond our lives and god keep innocents away from terrorists.
i came alone to mosul and it's too dangerous to live in my home because when the national guards or the american soldiers find a young man living alone he'll be considered as a terrorist and will be detained.
when i reached to mosul i phoned my father and he told me to keep with my friends at the hospital residency but i went home at first, had some rest and met some neighbours who were afraid and hesitated to talk about the situation and they didnt give me a clear answer . an hour passed, i went to hospital. honestly , i like to be with my friends instead of living lonely but at the same time i feel restless and can't sleep or eat well. i can face all this but not be humiliated or detained and im trying to make it as a visit to mosul. i can hold it no more, there is a big gap between baghdad and mosul, the way the people live differs, in addition and above all that my family is in baghdad living in a pain to see their son alone in mosul and in this bad situation of the city especially my mom who is complaining of hypertension. in my last visit to baghdad 1 month ago my brothers told me that she was in a very deteriorated health state, her blood presure was very high even they took her to the emergency at 5 a.m , the cardiologists caused it to her psychological state. now i feel guilty because every time she rings me a phone , she cries and in spite of her trials to hide that sometimes but her voice tone declares the deep pain. i wish i'm not borned yet to cause all this and i'm standing helpless. i wouldn't leave baghdad if i wasnt obliged, the whole capital was passing in a state of devastation and chaos and was very terrible but i say "may god forgive the causatives".
in my first day at work after vacation, i met my friends whom i missed and new rotator dentists were there, 3 of them were studying in baghdad at the same college of mine. the patients and dentists were in every yard of the dental centre. the manager said "find you a place to work in any department". at that day , i enjoyed my time we laughed and the smile was drawed on every face, that relieved me so much after a hard night that even headache realief didnt effect. i hoped that those moments would last forever and to see that smile on all the faces i meet. by night we were laughing and chatting and the sleeping song was 3 blasts and some shooting. this day , friday, the alarm tone was a horrible sound of explosion that woke us up and we were looking at each other to check if some one was injuerd or the glass of the window was crashed. thanks god it was only a shocking sound. some said that the explosion was in police station, but the hospital received many injured people as my friends said. may peace bond our lives and god keep innocents away from terrorists.
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